When you take that first step over the threshhold, facing your fear of changing yourself by actually doing something about what you think is right.
There is no turning back. The more you do, the more you gain, the better you feel for it and the greater the reaction in circumspect. You will quickly assign and delegate people’s attentions, you no longer take anything as negative and you create a world in which only you can succeed within.
Procrastination is the disease of the civilized man.
Most world industries rely on your ‘procrastination to act to achieve your dreams’ for their form of commerce to stay alive. It is a hard thing to do what is right in every moment, but once the cord has been pulled and the rope of life is gripped with a steady determination which only increases with resistance – you are in it for life and you can never turn back. You know this and you make your last choice. The choice to succeed in what you are doing because you believe this is the right thing to do and no longer are you misdirected.
You are a force to be reckoned with because you have given up your one thing that most define their freedom by, choice.
By giving up choice you take on responsibility and with responsibility comes more responsibility.
This frightens you but exhilarates you.
Haven Staple
Suicide is not a plan
Playing chess, I have realised that sacrificing pieces is not a plan, it is just something easy to do.
“Eye for an eye and TOOTH FOR AN TOOTH!”
Well, mi’harties, I want to let you know that your sacrifice should be a last option on your list of to do-s. If at all! Come one, come all, let’s dance the dance of preplanning your life and seeing how it can grow when you don’t give up on yourself easy and you push ahead with the persistence and agony of a tormented captain on a big big ship on a stormy stormy sea.
YARH!
Mind Log 24-03-2011-21:59
For explanation of mind log, see this post ===
Wank: 4 days ago
S/D: 2 teaspoons of coffee with equal parts sugar before 12pm; 2 teaspoons of coffee with equal parts sugar before 10:30pm (still drinking… just finished that coffee)
Food: Large container of rice with soy sauce, apple, onions, kangaroo meat, salt, butter – before 3pm.
Water: 2 litres between 12pm and 10pm.
Exercise: Walked to work – 1 hour 10 minutes before 12 pm; walked from work to hospital bus stop 15 minutes. Jogged across a long foot bridge yesterday, very proud of myself, I want to jog it more often so I can increase my propensity.
Emotional Response: Dead, slightly possessed, Annoyed but suppressing (not into listening to my neighours television) – in the process of convincing myself that I can set my mind to do anything and that includes simultaneously ignoring loud television while working on this computer.
Current Location: Room.
Current Motive: Going to read more of my book, playing chess, wanting to finish script for school I am writing.
Book: Dune – God Emperor by Frank Herbert
Movie: Last night before 12pm – Limitless (I enjoyed it immensely, and it ended happily after substance abuse, a surprising glitch allowed by the big man upstairs (by this I mean, the corporate man that poses as god))
Current Position: Seated on a very uncomfortable sofa couch, soft but not supportive, leaning forward to type and see the words on the screen.
Desc.:
I am in a daze as always. I emailed my sister the other day. It was a rather emotional email after a period of possession. I have to work on those possessions. I am living in and out of conscious awareness. Learning acting and working in sales is the best thing for me right now, because in these places I learn to manipulate my subtext at will and possessions don’t like to be pushed around. The evil lurks and the evil stays. But showing the celves who is in control by moving suddenly with purpose outside of their sphere of influence and directing myself removes their grip.
Possession is so addictive it is me running myself without having to do anything.
I stop there, I’ve said enough.
Now learn with me.
HS
What self forgiveness is really
Self forgiveness is the removal of barriers. We are usually cluttered with obstacles in normal life and we believe that they are all a part of ourselves we can’t do without.
These are lost desires formed from cell-memories that are fading and drifting in and out of your psyche.
The system requires that you operate this way in order for you to have no control over your life. This is so because if you had any control of your life, you wouldn’t be allowing these stray desires to push and pull you this way and that.
What would happen if you pulled it all into one and became one desire?
Possession. You become one want.
Consider forgiveness.
What is the purpose of self forgiveness? To gain clarity. Who can give you clarity?
Clarity is not something to be taken off someone or yourself, clarity is indeed the result of creating a clear space in your mind where there is no clutter and you can direct your thoughts on one thing and one thing only, as you choose it. Desires are this clutter. What do you really want to do in life? That is my question to you. What drives you? What makes you tick?
Find it, grab it, write it out.
Forgive yourself for it.
For example…
I want to become an actor, however, I am constantly being led by the desire that I want to join the army. I have these moments where I am torn between the two. Why should I have to choose?
Because if I don’t choose, nothing gets chosen and in this state is stagnation all can happily avoid (even the mightily self masochistic ones of you).
So what do I do?
I forgive myself for that desire.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must join the army or die a horrible death.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire joining the army.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that by desiring to join the army, I am infact misdirecting my desire to become an actor and I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that if I don’t make a choice now, one will be chosen for me, even if this is stagnation that all should avoid at all costs.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to breathe in the moment of this anger coming up of what I should do and when I should do it in regards to joining the army and/or becoming an actor.
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think too far ahead where I am preplanning every moment of my life that by the time I get to the present I don’t want to do any of it anymore.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise in every moment in breath that I give up and get frustrated if I preplan my life every iota before I live it.
On the other side of this equation…
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to accomplish plans that I make.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to truly honestly, deeply contemplate what it is I really want before going ahead and making plans.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make plans quickly in a moment of possession by a desire I don’t want to be.
Into that…
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow others to possess me with their desires.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to take control of my psyche and stop being possessed by other people’s desires.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise in every moment in breath that by following other people’s wants, needs and desires I compound anger which forms frustration within me and creates more clutter in my mind through allowing more desires to have the seat of power in my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire the only desire that will set me up for life.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to face my desires honestly and see what is really happening in this world and then adjusting my desires to what would really help people.
I allow myself to breathe.
Breathing is important in this. Without breath, you are dead. You were breathing when you lied to yourself and now you must breathe and direct yourself out of that deception.
Make sense?
Thought so.
Haven Staple.
Haven Staple’s Stickie
“In effect, you must raise your foot, imagine a foot step and then step on that footstep and raise your foot and repeat the process of imagining new heights and greater triumph.
This is an efficient review of our current circumstance as belief of being greater than we were 5000 years ago.”
– Haven Staple’s Stickie on his desktop, Monday 21/03/2011
Cult of Death
Everyone that lives in the money system is involved in some degree with the Cult of Death.
This Cult is an addiction to dieing and then coming back, dieing and then coming back. Demons of the past allowed to allure the future, by humans thinking CONTROL is the bees knees of existence.
No longer can we allow death to rule. Death has taken our time for too long and death will have our hides and our tails if we don’t change now. We must change in action for who we are is decided by our actions. If we act methodically and with good intent, we are still controlled. Learn to live without thinking and you will discover a live free of living deamons of the past, haunting you with thoughts of fear and allurement.
Take my word. Live without thoughts and live honestly.
Or else, listen to all the other many selves in your head that have absolved to taking control of the earth with their erratic systems that have no grounding in truth.
Real Truth.
Reality
A book that all must read to understand religion
The Crucible by Arthur Miller.
The capabilities of god and the story of creation and other fairy tales are memories created by the destructionists that stand at the top of the hierachial towers of the power that be-s.
Create a memory for the naive and teach them to be convincing in their delivery, then spread it to the most naive of the rest of the tribe and suddenly a majority of naive people are big enough to convince the least naive of the people.
Only a few remain that can actually see religion for what it is. Control based on deceptive influence.
The Crucible explains how fear controls the naive and makes them believe stories other fearful naive people have created in order to avoid the terrible consequences that MAY befall them. I highlight ‘may’ because, it only may happen – this form of naive and fearsome person cannot take the truth to its limit to test it because they believe the lies called ‘the consequences of trangressing the law of god’ to be real. So they are continually controlled by a cycle of fear that is endless in its conception.
Not until someone stands up and proves this to all. Someone that is high and mighty on the tower of hierachial control, will the people consider to listen.
They are so engrossed in this SYSTEM OF BELIEF that, that is what controls them now and whoever stands up now after all this time of knowing deception will be labelled the ANTICHRIST.
The government fears religions and sees them as a form of control that cannot be tampered with because the people inside the closed circuit control systems are primed against anything that goes against their closed circuit control systems for – THEY HAVE THE WORD OF GOD!
The Bible was a selective piece of bard-ratter that was created by King and Queens in an effort to better control the populace. AS WERE ALL OTHER HOLY SCRIPTS!
IT IS HIGH TIME WE STOOD UP FOR REALITY AND REALISED WE NEED TO RETAKE CONTROL OR DIE THE FEARFUL CONSEQUENCES WE HAVE DAMNED UPON OURSELVES!
We wanted it this way and so it is! We have no way out, not one escape. We are screwed.
What can we do? Take the only path to freedom. Honesty. And face the consequences of our predecessor’s actions long ago passed.
Now do it with me, STAND UP.
